in my head, i see you all over me

thank god exam week is done. no more science. no more spanish. allll done :) huge weight off my shoulders now. another plus, jeff gets home tonight, it's been a while, pretty stoked! as time moves on, vancouver creeps closer and closer, and i couldn't be more excited! it's going to be a tonn of fun! cleaning my room is also another good thing, because the faster i get it cleaned, the faster i can get it painted, or move downstairss! gotta start thinking about what i'm gonna do. 2010 has been good. it's been a month, but it's been good. and i know it's gonna get better! big plus, maybe the trip to australia will work out. maybe we can even just go get a good deal and go anyways! also, looking forward to the sweet 16 idea i came up with ;) this is just one big positive rant going on here.

supaa stokedd :)

i'm not the type to say sorry constantly

there's things i want to say to you but i don't know how to say them. 1) i don't get you sometimes, you do such unexpected things, but they happen often so i guess i should understand them. 2) fuck i want to talk to you. i wish things were how they used to be. you saved me from a lot. but that's over. no more chances.

things are heading downhill in some areas again. really awesome. and stupid exams, i feel like i'm getting sick. which is horrible.

on the plus side, australia or new zealand might be in my future.

you're making it hard for me

i don't know if this is how i will feel tomorrow, but right now i do. i don't want it to be you. and i know that i do. i just can't say it. because why does it have to be you. what once was will never be again, you've shown that to me very clearly. and i don't know what to do. you left me so wrecked.

set fire to the third bar

am i so pathetic that i cry in a book? i guess so. this is harsh. i didn't think there would be a book that would affect me so much (besides Twilight of course), but this is just insane. i love it though. so raw, not sugar coated. the truth. because this actually happens to people. it's real despite the fact that it's on paper. and somehow, i find it comforting, safe, dependable. regardless of the sadness that comes along with it, i just hope that someday i will have something like that. something beautiful. unique. unusual. i hope that some day i will be worthy of that.

i'm miles from where you are

life is boringgg as fuck right now.

so basically all i gotta say is SUPER stoked on vancouver in may,

and lovin' the friend scene right nowwwww.

aaaaand

really wanna sear 1) REMEMBER ME! 2) Dear John 3) The Last Song and 4) Valentine's Day

why do i just lie awake,

i feel so happy. for numerous reasons. because 1) this music i just downloaded tonight that puts me in a freakin good mood! 2) because it is clear now that i am so totally over you. done. not wasting time. and 3) HOLY SHITSKIES time is flying. before we know it, it's going to be May, and then it's going to be summer ! i can't wait for summer with yah :) and then it's going to be grade 11, and then grade 12! then we're off. and i can't waait. i just wanted to take this time to say that i love you a lot. and no matter what happens, you're always going to be my best friend forever. practically sisters. i love yah a ton, please don't forget that. ever ever ever everr! <3

if you don't know, now yah know nigguhh

well that was a productive night. found acad, and am thankful for that. had a talk with dad about it. he seems very willing to pay for wherever i want to go, and feels good to know that i have support from both sides now that i talked to mom about it too. so i think i'm doing pretty food for a grade 10. i just hope everything can work out for us.

what's going on with you lately? you do the randomest shit allll the time and it's starting to get super annoying. like yeah i'm sure you were just going to throw your brand new boots out, since they were so ugly right! don't change yourself just to be friends with her. it's sad.

this music makes me think. for the first time in a while i've been reeeally thinking about it all. i like it. i like it a lot. like a lot a lot.

love; raekwon, wu, gza, biggie.

let's ride let's ride let's ride

college hunting is hard. but we can do it. we're both flexible, and i know we won't just leave one another behind, we'll make it work. love yaaah.

on a side note,

why the fuck did i just break my record.

like months and months i went.

and then you just had to ruin it.

what the fuck am i going to do with myself now.

greeeeeeat. =/

let's take it back to ' 79

OKAY WOO. happy with myself being doneeee.

i will not waste any thoughts on you anymore :)

p.s. i love old school rap? mhmmmmmmm ;)