everybody seems so famous

_holy mother of pearl. i tell myself so much just to not think about it and to just go with the flow but holy you make it soo difficult for me. i mean i'm pretty happy, but i just don't wanna get confused about it, and i think i'm gonna stop thinking about it as much because i really don't want to take it the wrong way. but boy, if it is true, you sure know what you're doin.

baby you my erry' thanng

; okay sooooo like this is fucken messed. i stand there and look at all of you and sure i see some pretty sweet things, good qualities, but then i think of all the times you've backstabbed people, bitched people out, and betrayed some of your best friends, and i think, what the fuck are they doing. you don't deserve them! at all! like you talk about people, you aren't that nice, yet they still seem to "love" you. i don't understand it. at all. go suck a fat one, bitches.

when is it our turn?

we all know how far these interstates go

+ good night tonight, really glad that i spent it with my two favourite ladies <3

- no one but me seems to understand things when i say there is nothing! nothing special, nothing unique, nothing good, i know you're not lieing, but i hate having that little feeling inside me where i feel like you are cause of my thoughts.

+/- i trust you with my life but i know that you're not "over" him. and i feel like the biggest bitch in the world just coming in like this and having you feel like you shouldn't like him. you had him first, and i'm going to let you have that. from now on i'll just back offf.

i miss your arms around me

-so really i realized tonight that through everything; up's, down's, happy's, sad's, angry's, worried's, anything, you really are my best friend. and i've never had anyone like it. i wouldn't trade what we have for anything else. even though i do stupid stuff, i know you're alllllways going to stick by me, just like i would for you. basically in the shortest amount of time we've gotten back to the old way of how we used to be in elementary school. when drama didn't matter, boys weren't an issue, and your biggest worry was what time your mom was picking you up after school. i think that because we have each other, most of that is true. except for maybe the boys part. hahaha. but either way, i love you a ton. i don't want you to ever forget that. you're truly amazing.

let's spend the afternoon in a cold hot air balloon

+ thank you for that. took my mind off of a buncha gay stuff, so thank you a lot. i'll love you forever <3

this is roc nation

; so fucken, rocked it out to jay-z thursday night. what a sick concert. like it was literally heart-pounding. i haven't been to many concerts at all, but this one was so worth it. fucken stoked on jay-z. what a beauty. super dead today though, but so worth it !

yeah you make me merry make me very very happy

; everytime i try to write, i get like writer's block, and i don't know why. usually things just come easily, but maybe there's something on my mind. in fact, i know there is. but i don't want to admit to it, or address it, because that will make it worse. so i really am stuck here.

wake up early to black and white re-runs

; you know the decision you have to make, so just do it. you know it's for the best. just do it. holy fuck. i'm sick of you "not knowing what to do" when you clearly know the best choice. either way he's gonna be hurt, so just do it and get it over with, for everyone's sake ?

not only you and me

[ i don't really know what to do with this. just make me happy for once, i don't think i deserve to be upset all the time... ]

it gets better everday

- i tried re-writing this about, 5 times. because i don't know what to say without sounding like a homo. hahah. but either way, i love yah, just though i'd let you know. you know who you are ;) tonight has been utterly amazing, you're wonderful :)

but, through his words

; what a surreeeeeal event lastnight!!

"i miss you"

honestly, can you believe

; okay i'm so sick of trying to tell you my issues and maybe get some help because whenever i discuss any of my problems, you change the subject right away, and it goes straight back to you. it's like, i'm sorry i'm not important enough? it's like you think you're so much more superior than everyone else, and you're not, you're just as equal as the rest of us. so stop treating us like that, please and thanks.

; really? GET A LIFE. holy shit what the fuck do you think we're going to think? yes we found out you're a lying bitch, right to our faces. so we're done. both of us. i hope. this time we're not going to give you another chance, because that's probably the most retarded thing that's ever happened to her, and as her best friend i'm not going to stand for that shit. next time you start more, you're going to have to deal with me. because i won't take your shit. kthnx.

i've never been, happier.

; holy god i think one of these days i'm actually going to have a heart attack!

; mmm i love my friends a lot :)

; something i learnt today, second chances get taken advantage of. don't hand them out like free condoms.

darling you are, the only exception

; so this weekend was really amazing. because saturday night i went to go see some dorky movies with a super fun person :), and it was pretty great. and then sunday i went to the mall with my best friend and we had some really good laughs :), and it made me realize, we only have a few years to be a dork, and then you have to start growing up and moving on. so live in the moment, live for today, and wait until you really have to, to start thinking about tomorrow. because before you know it, it's going to come, and seem like yesterday should be tomorrow.

now i know why all the trees change in the fall.

; so excited for the rest of the weekend :)

; i had the best day with you today, actually, i really loved today :)

; next week will be good because i love textiles and english a lot :)

; stupid being is sick is limiting my singing ability :(

; btw; a statement was made in science today that i just can't stop thinking about :)