and i am finishing it off

finishing this shit early cause i clearly can't keep up.

27. Talk about your siblings

i only have one, my older brother jeff. probably one of my best friends. i could pretty much tell him anything and he will listen and give me advice. he is really stubborn and a lot of times i want to break his nose but i would not be the person that i am today without him. he has not only helped me, but my whole family get through a lot by being the strong person that he is. i love my brother :) even though hes as annoying as they get.

28. The month you were happiest this year and why?

well it wasn't this year because the year already started but it was october when everything started to fall back how it was supposed to be. i got my best friend and boyfriend back, and finally became happy again.

29. A picture of yourself

30. What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month

nothing really changed, except kind of that i got a job. i hope next month i get a different job, and that our 7 month goes really well :)

22. - 26 CAUSE I SUCK

22. 10 things about you people don't really expect

1. when people meet me they automatically think i am way older than i am

2. i've had a job for about 5 years and i have 2 now

3. that i've never had a boyfriend before my current one now

4. i'm still only in grade 11

5. that i don't like working at starbucks!

6. that i have a job at starbucks!

7. me and my boyfriend have only been together for like 6 months

i can't finish this because there aren't really any things that people are surprised about with me

23. Something you will always think "what if..." about

there's actually a few of those.

what if my parents were still together?

what if i had never met my boyfriend?

what if we had never broken up the first time?

24. Things you want to say to 5 different people

this is a really stupid one and im going to skip it. what kind of question is that..

25. 10 ways to win your heart

1. great sense of humour

2. of course like any girl, compliments

3. acting like yourself around me

4. being comfortable and confident

5. a cute smile

6. going for it and not holding back

7. making the first move

8. wanting to be around my family

9. staying with me through the hard times

10. looking past faults, and accepting me for who i am. that is the biggest thing someone could do for you, loving you for who you are.

26. Your religious beliefs

well this will be a short one because i have none, i believe strongly in the theory of evolution.

14. - 21, i am SO bad at this

14. Something disgusting you do.

uhmmmm, hmm. i dont really know.. but like i burp sometimes? baha everyone burps. uhm okay so like i guess some people classify this as disgusting but i dont really think its that bad, but i have a nose ring and its a corkscrew right so i always like twirl it and clean it off, and people think thats really gross.

15. The best thing that happened to you this week.

the week starts on sunday, so im gonna say me and felix's big 6 month mark was the best thing thats happened to me this week :) <3

16. 3 things that you are proud of about your personality.

well this is intersting. uhm i guess number 1 is that i like how understanding i am, number 2 is that i am always there to count on like if you need something never be afraid to talk to me even if we aren't even that good of friends, and number 3, i care, a lot more than a lot of people think i do, i care so much about others and how people are and somethings its not that great of a thing but im proud of it because i am just a very caring person.

17. Things that make you scared.

i'm going to list 5 things,

dying alone

not getting married

failing to reach my goals

spiders

losing you

18. Disrespecting parents

i guess this is "thoughts on," so i guess you could say im against it. i mean sometimes i do and i mean who doesnt mouth of to a parent once in a while but some people take it so far. to really swear at your parents or to go as far as laying a hand on them, to me thats disgusting. it works out so much better when your parents understand things so talking to them is usually the best way to get points across.

19. Something that never fails to make you feel better

when my boyfriend gives me a hug and even if its a relationship problem with us, whenever he hugs me and lets me stay there for as long as i need, it always makes me feel better. its like something about the feeling of him holding me in his arms, my mind just goes and comes back with a more clear perspective of things. he always knows how to make me feel better, even sometimes just with words. i can always turn to him to cheer me up.

20. The last argument you had

uhmm, i dont really know. like a legit argument, probably this morning with my mom actually, about my attitude and how im so rude about spending time with my extended family (which sucks, just to clarify)

21. Something you can't seem to get over

hm. this is a tough one. i guess i could say my regrets. i only have 1. that i let someone into my life who ruined it, and me. who broke me and trashed everything i had built up to keep my strong. giving into someone who didn't actually give a fuck about me.

11, 12, 13, cause i suck.

11. Your current relationship, if single, discuss how single life is.

my current relationship is flipping amazing. i can't even describe it. we're best friends, but even more than that. we're each the person we rely on the most. like if i have anything to talk about, it goes to him, and the same thing for him to me. it's almost effortless because together we just fit, we're goofy and ridiculous and we fit together sooo perfectly. i hope other people are jealous, because i think it would be the first thing someone would ever be jealous of me for. i absolutely adore everything about him. his eyes, and his smile and the dimples in his cheeks and the way his hair falls and the funny faces he makes and the softness of his ears and his arms, and the way he holds me so tightly that makes me feel like i'm the most amazing girl in the world. i honestly feel so amazing all the time around him. i couldnt have asked for a better relationship, and i dont think i even will. there is a lot more of this relationship to go.

12. Things you want to say to an ex.

pretty much to any guy that i've ever "been with", thanks for using me and treating me like a materialistic object. a woman or a girl is not something to be used, they're something to be cherished and taken care of. don't take me for granted. don't treat me like shit. don't make sexual jokes about me. don't act like you can find someone else who is just as good or even better than i am. stop objectifying women and GET A FUCKING LIFE.

13. A date you would love to go on.

i love any dates that my boyfriend would take me on. but something that i would love to do, hmm. a summer night, thats possibly not too cold. at the beach, with just a blanket, maybe a few candles. just hanging out and watching the water, maybe the sunset. something really simple that could just link us and bring us together more, if that were even possible.

10. your views on drugs and alcohol

this is a tough one for me. if you would have asked me like a couple years ago i would have said i hated and despised drugs but drinking was okay once in a while. now if you asked me, i wouldn't know what to say. because i cant say i think its terrible because the person i love was involved with that and to make them feel that shitty wouldn't be right. but the thing is, i don't really mind them. i just don't want him to do them. i dont want him to think it's okay because to me it's not. i'd rather go out and drink. i just have really mixed feelings. if other people do them, then whatever that's your life, but i don't want them in mind.

7, 8, and 9 (since i'll be gone a couple days)

7. Your opinion on cheating on people.

it's sick and disgusting. not to mention degrading. if there's something lacking with your relationship then you should get out of it, not make the other person feel like that because then that makes you a bad partner. i would NEVER cheat on a boyfriend and i would hope he would do the same for me.

8. Something you're currently worrying about.

being away from him for a couple days. which is kind of lame but he's the best thing in my life and i miss him already. i don't know how i'm going to do it, but i will.

9. Your last kiss.

powerful. it was the last one for a few days so it had to be good. it came with a verry tight hug. i loved it, it made me feel so good. like i would be missed, like he didn't want to leave and didn't want me to go. made me feel really good.. xox

2. thru 6, i suck at this..

2. How have you changed in the past two years?

i can't even being to explain. in so many ways. i don't care as much what other people think. i'm not all about fitting in with everyone cause i know i don't. i realized who my true friends are and what type of person i am. i've come to terms with what i've got and i'm done being over dramatic about trying to change myself. i recently have learnt to appreciate the things you've got. whether it be money at the time, or amazing friends, someone that listens, appreciate it. if you don't appreciate it, it's not going to have an impact on you and it's going to leave. i've just become a better person in general, with help from my best friend. he is the world.

3. What kind of person attracts you?

the funny type. honestly as long as you're goofy you're so attractive to me. i think its really cute when guys are shy too. but goofy for sure, its the most attractive thing about someone to me. i also like guys who are super honest and not afraid to tell you things or be themselves.

4. What you wear to bed.

it differs from PJ pants to girl-boxers and v-necks to tank tops. never socks, ew.

5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex and same sex.

Guys

1. they think that all gay men have a crush on them

2. they take pride in sleeping with a ton of girls

3. they ask a lot of questions

4. they aren't afraid to call girls bitches or cunts or whatever, it hurts.

5. THEY LEAVE THE FUCKING SEAT UP!

Girls p.s. these apply to myself as well..

1. their constant need for attention whether it be good or bad

2. over-dramatizing things

3. when they get their period -____-

4. the love of drama and a good bitch fight

5. when they call themselves fat or ugly and they know theyre fucking gorgeous and stick thin. that makes me sick.

6. The person you like and why you like them.

obviously i like my amazing boyfriend felix. no brainer. why i like him, well thats another story. he reminds me of everything beautiful and effortless. anything that brings you instant joy and pure bliss. a real smile in a photography, hot chocolate on a snowy day, a tight hug when you're on the verge of tears. anything wonderful. he is the sweetest, most caring and understanding person i have ever had the privilege of having in my life. he is also so positive. without him i would be so depressed and negative. i used to be, but he changed that. he has helped shape me into the person that i am today, and has helped me become an amazing person. i am forever grateful to him because without him i'm nothing. he is sexy and amazing and wonderful and honest and caring and cute and funny and goofy and he's just himself. that's the best part. and i know that it's because of me. it's because he's helped me not to judge people, and for that he is himself. and i love that person.