i'm not the type to say sorry constantly

there's things i want to say to you but i don't know how to say them. 1) i don't get you sometimes, you do such unexpected things, but they happen often so i guess i should understand them. 2) fuck i want to talk to you. i wish things were how they used to be. you saved me from a lot. but that's over. no more chances.

things are heading downhill in some areas again. really awesome. and stupid exams, i feel like i'm getting sick. which is horrible.

on the plus side, australia or new zealand might be in my future.