this time won't you save me?

hi there. it's been a while. i hardly recognize you. and you probably don't even remember who i am at all.

here go my fingers.

okay so lots has happened lately and i havent gotten anything out. there was a big rough patch recently of all things combining and everything kind of falling apart. but that's all fixed and i couldn't be happier now. because its back to normal and i feel really good about that. i feel like every time i sit down and try to write something i just end up writing about you. but i don't want to do that this time. im getting kind of tired of trying to hang out because its like you really just dont want to. every time we make a plan or talk about doing something it "doesnt work for you" but two or three weeks down the road it will work. well im sorry but i cant just do that. i know its not easy to make plans but im always nagging and i feel like you just dont want to. we've lost a lot of contact lately and i feel as if we don't even exist to each other. but whatever we'll fix it, or not. shit happens. ive learnt that a lot recently. people fight way too much. boyfriends and girlfriends, best friends, parents and kids, everybody. it's like a non stop chain of arguments or anger or bitching. and i really don't like that. you might think you are so in sync with someone and no matter what happens you will be happy and so will they. but sometimes personalities collide and people say things on impact that they don't necessarily mean. but you get through it. ive learnt that the hard way. i wish i didnt. but oh well i shouldnt say that. i try not to regret anything. i just needed to rant a little bit so this is all you get. goodnight, and farewell.