i know this is a terrible thing to think because i respect your decisions and the time that you take to do things. i also greatly respect that you don't want to say things you don't mean. but i often find myself thinking "it feels like you don't love me.." but then i think about it again, and say to myself "oh right, you don't..." and i don't know how i let myself think that. along with "you loved her and you told me that but you can't love me? you don't love me? after all we've been through and all the things we've done together. it can't be me?" what's wrong with me? why can't i just respect that choice of yours. because theres other people out there that can say it and really mean it after the time we've had together. i feel like the biggest bitch of a girlfriend when i think this, but i just can't help but know what goes through your mind about me sometimes.
how do you think you can yell and scream at us and not want to drive us to tears? you do it all the time and don't even stop to think one thought before you do it. and it's quite sickening to be honest. you think you can get away with making us feel like shit ALL the time. but you can't. it's wrong. you don't deserve us, such amazing people in your life. always trying to please you. when all you do in return is act like you own this place and like you own us. it's not right. it's so wrong.
and to end this off. all i want is to see you. that would make me the happiest person.
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