and i want you to stay

so it's finally 2011. thank god.

all in all, 2010 was a pretty shitty year. until one person.

i have to just write this out because i've started talking about it so it needs to just come out now. i know it's a lot of feelings right now but you have to realize i have never stopped, you've always been the one i wanted.

i'm crying while writing this.

i wouldn't be able to do any of this without you. you don't know how true that is. i used to feel really weak, until i met you and you became such a huge part of my life. its like pure sunshine when i'm with you. i think about watching the stars and realizing your purpose in life, thinking about the how beautiful life is. you remind me of all the wonderful things people talk about or you hear or see in movies. it kind of feels like a movie sometimes because i still haven't grasped that concept that you're mine and only mine. it feels so surreal that you want to be with me, because i've never had this with anyone else the way i've had it with you. you've made me discover thing about myself that i had no idea about. you bring out such an amazing side of me that no one else really gets to see. the side that would do anything for you, just to keep you safe. the side that cares for you unconditionally and would do anything just to make you happy. i feel like we have this connection thats undeniable and nothing can break it. nothing has broken it, because even though we got dealt some shitty cards, you came back. and we're together and better than ever. you make me feel beautiful, amazing, and like i'm finally worth something. no one else has done that to me before. i just can't describe the impact you've had on me and my life. i've really changed, and my life has really changed. in such a good way. i can't imagine me without you. you're the cutest thing i have ever laid eyes on. the sexiest thing i have ever laid my hands on. the most amazing thing that my mind has ever captured. i have never met someone who understands me better, and who gets me like you do. you are literally the most amazing person i have ever met. not only are you my boyfriend, but you're easily my best friend. i feel so comfortable around you and that means a lot because i'm always worried about myself and how self conscious i am. you are literally the most amazing person i have ever met. i've never met a guy that could be so funny, charming, adorable, sweet, caring, reliable, and responsible. the list could go on about all your amazing qualities. i could tell you these things every day. because i wish that you agreed with me, agreed on how amazing you are. you are so much more amazing and wonderful and breathtaking than you give yourself credit for. i hope that you can start to realize it, because you're helping me realize who i really am. i couldn't ask for anything else, because you make me feel invincible. without you, i am nothing. you are the best thing about me.

i love you.