she tastes like cigarettes and alcohol

i honestly can't wait until you're home. it's going to make my whole christmas break to have you back. and then you're going to leave again, and i can bet that i'm going to cry. it's so weird without you here. quiet mostly. and just not the same. i guess that's what it's going to be like when you're gone for good. and i guess that's what it's going to be like when i'm older and i leave. i'm just going to be happy that you're back again. because even though it may not seem like it, i miss you a lot. and i love you a lot. wouldn't want anyone else but you!