your spine is ablaze

holy shit. as soon as you told me, tears just filled my eyes. but i sucked them back in because i'm stronger than that. but if you do go, i know you won't read this, but i'm going to miss you so much. you've been my best friend for a long time and i can't deal with losing someone that's so close to me. i don't even know what else to say. this is going to be too hard if you don't come back. i don't think you realize, but i can't go without you. you're one of the best friends i've ever had and i'm going to miss you way wayy too much. too much for our own good. but whatever happens, you deserve the best, i want you to be happy wherever you are. and if that place isn't here with me and all your other friends, then i just want you to know i'm never going to forget you, i love you a lot. <3 forever.