i've never gone with the wind, just let it flow, let it take me where it wants to go

; so honestly i don't know why i keep getting jealous, becuase i shouldn't, i'm over you, i'm over it. i don't give a flying fuck anymore. but i just get jealous, and i don't even know why. i'm getting over it though, i'm not going to sit around and get mad at things and get mad at myself over some stupid little thing like this. it's not worth it. and i hate it say this and sound really rude, but you're not worth it, becuase you hurt me twice. and i haven't even known you that long. so honestly, what the fuck do you think you're doing. you have no idea what i feel becuase you're too immature for me to tell you. i should have never gotten involved with you in the first place. ugh. what was i thinking. i made such a big mistake, i wish i wouldn't have started highschool like this. i'm such an idiot sometimes. it's pretty sad. i just need to let go of it, let go of you, i'm not gonna talk to you anymore because from how you respond latley you don't want to talk to me. so i'm gonna go with it. and not make such an effort to be your friend anymore becuase you OBVIOUSLY don't want to be my friend. so i think i'm just gonna give up, officially this time. not like the time when i said i was going to but i didn't. this time i'm actually going to. i hope you're happy with the six thousand other girls you play these stupid games with. it hurts a lot.